this song in my blog is mean triangle love , is just like i love you but you love other . i have no choice to force you to love me , but i still will wait for you , you can see those my pic look so fun and happy , but in my heart there no really happy at all , i dont want to disappoint my friend so i need to act like am really happy , dont you understand how much i love you , i never even happy since the day you leave , cause i cant get what i want , maybe i am useless . i dont know i needed to wait for you how long i dont wanna go predict it , but i will pray everyday for your return . everyday night wanna sleep but cant get to sleep , miss you lying on bed look at the wall , preview back those happy day with you sad day with you crazy day with you , every moment with you those day i never been forget it away , i put all in to my heart to just wait for you return back to me , and slowly tell you what we did in the past , so every night go out until i am tired then when home to get in sleep . haish i dont know why my life is so meaningless . i know you wont return me back anymore why i am so stubborn to love you . but let me tell you something seriously i wanna tell you very early but i just dont dare to tell it , but now i have no more chioce i have hide in my heart for a long time . (我的一辈子的爱都给了你) . i cant give other people any love anymore le . you are the first and i will be you be the last . here end with my fake smile .